March 20, 2005
It is done.
Friday night, about 9:30, the last paper was sent off. Complete. Not a bad paper, I think. Talked about the relationship between ekphrasis and Keat's negative capability. Hopefully my prof will like it. But, the thing is
I'm done.
Such a strange though. Old chapter closed, new chapter opening. What is written on its pages...
I'm not sure, but trying to figure out life from here. Hung out with Sale for a bit, and had dinner with my mom on Friday. Andrew was up in Yuba, so will have to celepbrate with him later. Now I just have to move. Supposed ot be out of here by Sunday, but you can get extra days if you pay for them, so I'll be out of my place by Wednesday. Might be a little while before I post again - not sure what my internet capabilities will be for a little while. Well, might be a little while befaore I get written posts anyway. I signed up for audioblogging the other day, so I'll try to keep up to date with that at least.
Need to go. If you saw everything that I need to pack up you'd know why.
Friday night, about 9:30, the last paper was sent off. Complete. Not a bad paper, I think. Talked about the relationship between ekphrasis and Keat's negative capability. Hopefully my prof will like it. But, the thing is
I'm done.
Such a strange though. Old chapter closed, new chapter opening. What is written on its pages...
I'm not sure, but trying to figure out life from here. Hung out with Sale for a bit, and had dinner with my mom on Friday. Andrew was up in Yuba, so will have to celepbrate with him later. Now I just have to move. Supposed ot be out of here by Sunday, but you can get extra days if you pay for them, so I'll be out of my place by Wednesday. Might be a little while before I post again - not sure what my internet capabilities will be for a little while. Well, might be a little while befaore I get written posts anyway. I signed up for audioblogging the other day, so I'll try to keep up to date with that at least.
Need to go. If you saw everything that I need to pack up you'd know why.
March 15, 2005
Well, where do I begin. It's been kind of up and down these last few days. This chapter of my life is definitely coming to a close. It's going to be strange, moving away from all this. I don;t think I feel scared anymore though...I think I actually feel ready, almost relieved with the surety of closure. A part of me still wnats to stay on, get the second degree, get the master's degree, do something to stay...but part of me is completely ready to go. Hopefully that part of me will be the stronger one. I think so. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror earlier and for the first time I felt like I really saw a man looking back at me. I've always felt...well, younger than I am, and my actions have reflected that. I feel a difference now though, a growing confidence in who I am and my abilities. There's a certain coldness though also, cause the path I see before me, as hazy as it is, looks like a lonely one.
Right now, what I see is the few things I have left to do here, in this phase, and the goodbyes and letting go I have to do. I think I'm going to go for a little bike ride. When I come back I have some dishes, then some writing. Four days more, andit is over. Wow. Those words, finally, are really dawning on me.
Brace yourself world, I'm coming onto the scene. I might come quietly, but you will know without a doubt when I arrive.
Oh yeah, I have a new motto.
I got it from a silly little movie called "The First Twenty Million".
Are you ready? Okay, here it is...
Simplify,Clarify, Economize
Got it? Good. Live by it.
Right now, what I see is the few things I have left to do here, in this phase, and the goodbyes and letting go I have to do. I think I'm going to go for a little bike ride. When I come back I have some dishes, then some writing. Four days more, andit is over. Wow. Those words, finally, are really dawning on me.
Brace yourself world, I'm coming onto the scene. I might come quietly, but you will know without a doubt when I arrive.
Oh yeah, I have a new motto.
I got it from a silly little movie called "The First Twenty Million".
Are you ready? Okay, here it is...
Simplify,Clarify, Economize
Got it? Good. Live by it.
March 06, 2005
Had to go home today - second funeral in as many weeks. Both people were old and everyone was expecting them to go, but still ---two funerals. Anyway, this one was closer (70 miles instead of 700), so it was just a day trip. Kind of took a detour on the way home and took some pictures in the countryside (check my picture site). Also on the way back to school I dropped by Alameda to see my grandma and have dinner with her. I was going to take her out, but she didn't feel up to it, and just wanted me to bring her some KFC, so that's what I did. We sat in her kitchen and watched Jeopardy as we ate. It was nice - I should try out for that show someday - I was getting about 80% of the questions they asked, and before the contestants did. Maybe they were just easy questions today. Ah well, I don't see a game show in my future.
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Wow - I feel kind of overwhelmed at the moment - just looking at everything I need to do in the next two weeks. God help me - I need to be focused and disciplined. If anyone reads this, pray for me. Two weeks - right now, that's what it comes down to...
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Wow - I feel kind of overwhelmed at the moment - just looking at everything I need to do in the next two weeks. God help me - I need to be focused and disciplined. If anyone reads this, pray for me. Two weeks - right now, that's what it comes down to...
March 04, 2005
Trying to get a picture into my profile, and figured best way would be to associate it with the same system it belongs to - blogspot - so, here's a picture, which hopefully I will now be able to get linked to my profile.
March 02, 2005
Upon This Rock: A GQ Feature Article
This is really interesting. I haven't read the whole thing yet, just a bit from the front and a bit from the end, but it looks really cool. I got the link from Glen's site, where he says that it is, "an absolutely phenomenal article by an ex-Christian who goes to a Christian music festival and writes about it for GQ."
Yeah, good stuff. Check it out for yourself. It's long, but worth it. I'll read the middle part next, but I know it ends good.
This is really interesting. I haven't read the whole thing yet, just a bit from the front and a bit from the end, but it looks really cool. I got the link from Glen's site, where he says that it is, "an absolutely phenomenal article by an ex-Christian who goes to a Christian music festival and writes about it for GQ."
Yeah, good stuff. Check it out for yourself. It's long, but worth it. I'll read the middle part next, but I know it ends good.
March 01, 2005
When I got up today and looked out the window the sky looked nice. I just got home and was quite soaked by the rain that decided to come down. Where did it come from? Funn how things change over twelve hours. I'm happy though - I attended a panel discusion and was able to bring a half tray of food home. Oh yeah. Anything I don't have to cook makes me happy. Kind of interesting getting it all home while riding my bike in the rain, but it all worked out. That's why I carry plastic grocery bags in my back pack.
Anyway, class today was interesting. Reading Yeats a bit, and a couple of lines stuck out for me.
"Who dreamed that beauty passes like a dream" - The Rose of the World
"I cast my heart into my rhymes" - To Ireland in the Coming Times
"A woman of so shining loveliness
That men threshed corn at midnight by a tress,
A little stolen tress." - The Secret Rose
"Had they but courage equal to desire" - The Consolation
"For Fergus...rules the shadows of the wood
And the white breast of the sea
And all disheveled wandering stars." - Who Goes with Fergus?
"The gray wolf knows me" - The Madness of King Goll
Yeah, that's pretty much it. These lines just jumped out at me. interesting to have the meter Yeats used, to kind of shake things up a bit. Quite interesting. And learnign about his lady love that turned down his proposals like five or six times - he was so enamoured of her that later in life he even proposed to her daughter, who also turned him down. Poor guy.
Just one class for tomorrow, last one actually for NAtional Poetics. I;m busy enough though. Besides three papers and the big research one that is overdue, I need to get soe regular work done over in Sweet Hall, and rip the hard drives out of the old computers we're tossing. Crazy things - like four or six MB hard drives. Wow. They still turn on, but as they have student info on them and I can't figure out a secure way to delete the hard drives (the DoD level HD wiper I use on PCs doesn't work on these ancient Macs), I just have to physically destroy the HDs. Ah well, lots of stuff to do. As such, hasta luego, mi amigo.
Anyway, class today was interesting. Reading Yeats a bit, and a couple of lines stuck out for me.
"Who dreamed that beauty passes like a dream" - The Rose of the World
"I cast my heart into my rhymes" - To Ireland in the Coming Times
"A woman of so shining loveliness
That men threshed corn at midnight by a tress,
A little stolen tress." - The Secret Rose
"Had they but courage equal to desire" - The Consolation
"For Fergus...rules the shadows of the wood
And the white breast of the sea
And all disheveled wandering stars." - Who Goes with Fergus?
"The gray wolf knows me" - The Madness of King Goll
Yeah, that's pretty much it. These lines just jumped out at me. interesting to have the meter Yeats used, to kind of shake things up a bit. Quite interesting. And learnign about his lady love that turned down his proposals like five or six times - he was so enamoured of her that later in life he even proposed to her daughter, who also turned him down. Poor guy.
Just one class for tomorrow, last one actually for NAtional Poetics. I;m busy enough though. Besides three papers and the big research one that is overdue, I need to get soe regular work done over in Sweet Hall, and rip the hard drives out of the old computers we're tossing. Crazy things - like four or six MB hard drives. Wow. They still turn on, but as they have student info on them and I can't figure out a secure way to delete the hard drives (the DoD level HD wiper I use on PCs doesn't work on these ancient Macs), I just have to physically destroy the HDs. Ah well, lots of stuff to do. As such, hasta luego, mi amigo.
